Vita è bella

2006-09-22T05:17:00.000-07:00

Crown of scars

Forget about the fight to wear the crown of scars
'cause you've already won
forget the pain and the tears behind you
bury underneath your feet the remains
of what's been left behind
'cause you have got a long a long way to run
but now you dance the rest of the way
and you don't look back
can you hear that angel singing
as you rise

now you fly away
and you don't look down now
and you laugh 'till you can't laugh any longer
as you watch your chains fall to the ground

will you fall against the wall that you have built with your own hands
when you trip upon the thorns that you have tied your legs together with
when you walk upon thin ice that you know you know you should not be walking
why do you wonder why that you fell through

and now you laugh
and your tears
smile down at your fears
from where you are
from way up here
you know nothings ever looked so good
nothing ever looked so good
but now you dance the rest of the way
you don't look back
can you hear that angel singing
as you rise

2006-09-21T01:39:00.000-07:00

WISHES

Dear Chip,

Today is your birthday. Happy birthday little boy in the picture. It’s hard to believe, thirty-eight years later, that this is what you looked like. Your wide blue eyes, the freckles on your cheeks, the slight smile.

Magic will play a big part in your life so magic has allowed me to go back to when you were seven and tell you some things you might want to know for the future :

1. You won’t be “Chip” after High School. You’ll decide to go by your given name because you think it shows you’ve matured. So don’t get too attached to Chip. There will come a point when the only person who still calls you Chip will be your Mother and then there’ll come a point when she will stop calling you at all. “Chip” will fade and fade until you wonder if it ever really existed or was just something you imagined from the corner of your eye.

2. Life burns quickly. Ride the fire but when the flame goes out, don’t be shocked or surprised. Events will come and go, people will come and go, money will come and go. There’s little I can say to prepare you for this fact unfortunately. What’s more, after they are gone is usually when you need them the most.

3. There will be tough times ahead and this is where Magic will come in. Your lot in life, I discovered, was to be a Magician. Over and over again you’ll have to break the chains which bind you, free yourself from the box in which you seem trapped and swim to the surface. Each time it will seem impossible and indeed, you will sometimes tire of the effort needed. Maybe, you think, I’ll just stay here under water and use whatever energy I have left to examine the inside of the box. As time goes by, there will be less and less people even waiting at the surface for you to emerge. An angel or two, a beagle. However you’re a Magician and that’s what Magicians do. It’s (SPOILER ALERT) in your blood.

4. Finally, learn to be BFF with your fears. Fear of being alone, fear of having no money to eat and pay your bills, fear of being the last person left in the world you created. Those fears will motivate you to make an effort to perform one more trick, one more piece of Magic that so many others can’t. You’ll ask for support one more time. You’ll be known even if you doubt your ability to interest. You’ll live against the odds of medicine and fate while others around you perish. You’ll reach in a hat and pull out one more startled rabbit.

I like you in this portrait, untouched by stress and grief. I like to imagine what you could have possibly been looking at off camera. Maybe a gray bearded man franticly pulling flowers from mid-air while his beautiful assistant lies at his side.

xxx - You

2006-08-21T01:23:00.000-07:00

Today is filled with anger

Fueled with hidden hate

Scared of being outcast

Afraid of common fate

Today is built on tragedies

Which no one wants to face

Nightmares to humanities

And morally disgraced

Tonight is filled with rage, violence in the air

Children bred with ruthlessness

Because no one at home cares

Tonight I lay my head down

But the pressure never stops

Gnawing at my sanity

Content when I am dropped

But tomorrow I see change

A chance to build a new

Built on spirit intent of Heart

And ideals based on truth

And tomorrow I wake with second wind

And strong because of pride

To know I fought with all my heart to keep my dream alive

-tupac shakur

2006-08-19T07:14:00.000-07:00

ok hi people i had to edit the thing cuz i just fell in love with this layout & had to get done so i was making somechanges but here i am back again :)

yea and again, here are the three videos i had before...i would like you to watch them they're very touching :)